The one with my excursion trip to spore river...

Had my last trip of the yr with the kids... really had lots of fun... missing them already, the VP told me to stay bcos of my gd work but i just cldnt... i needed a more perm job... sigh...

Anyway we reached there in loads of buses n the kids just swarmed ard the river n museums... they were so excited, same as i... haha. everyone was there, almost... one of my fav student cldnt go... but my pet (fav student) did went finally... haha
damn cute loh... lots of photos to remember them by... one of the best yrs of my career life... i guess i will enjoy the best i can for the next final month... :(

Alrite, today, went to sch n felt unwell, after being drenched in the rain, i was sneezing all the way n then the sore throat came n made me feel so tired... i hate it, my competition is on fri n i need to be in shape, ARGH... i need rest seriously therefore, i made myself sleep at 10pm today which is in 2omins time...
i need my beauty rest... haha.

Although was feeling horrible, i made arrangment with dera to get some beads so i still made my way to bugis... upon reachin, this pruedential agent came up to me to talk abt financial planning n when i told him i hav one with the same cpy who is of higher rank than him, he still go on abt wanting to meet me n maybe do an analyse on wat i hav done with my agent... im like... HELLO!!! u even steal clients among one another!!! n he can't talk no for an ans. its not that i dun hav one then he insist nvm lah, but i hav one n within the same cpy, wat the hell is he thinking, so wat good looks, no brain loh... okok dun be mean, n i wasnt. i responded nicely til he gave up... irritating!!!

sign out.

The one with a long long day....

im so so tired today...
Got SA2 Oral exams for the kids then photoshoot for the sch idol and then to work n then to practicing of the idol contest...

im really drained.... sigh... came home to an empty space though... sigh... not complaining lah but well...
i do feel lonely at time.

yesterday got to go FF for the first time with al, kel n luke, for BC... its really fun to work out with them but stressful lah... haha hav to rush, still prefer cali though... feels like home.

went to watch "Bro Grimms" again story good, but acting n actors suck!!!

So today during oral, i was so so tired i couldnt really concentrate, kept dozing off.... ya ya ya i knw its bad, its bad, i felt so gulity n i dun want them to fail... although its not my class, i try to be more lenient then...

health wise i feel i m not really in tiptop shape, i think i overworked myself... n tml is my new n last term in my business degree... cant wait haha... yah rite... i so wish for more break... i do need a break soon... end of the yr i hope... okok gotto go sleep now... continue tml...

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The one where i finished my exams... yippy....

Yahoo!!!

I finished.... finally now only left one more term to go... MPP... dunno wats that... MP my ass...

Damn loh, next week start the next term liao... no time to rest also... stupid!!! haha

My next task... the coming children day item which i hav to over look... all levels competing in the Idol contest... its a grp event so hav to coordinate them well... playing my fav song frm m fav show all time....


FRIENDS ---- I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU....


hope its a success, as its not easy, teaching them singing, playing the instruments n coordinating all today while i have to concentrate on my part as well... sigh... the bloody principal better let me win... as the rest of the teachers r breathing down my neck... pressure n more stress... i havent write out my parts yet... n its so late now...
sigh...

i cant believe, its almost two weeks n mummy's coming back frm china soon... i miss her so so much... she sms me that day saying how tired she was... i m so worried... i better clean up the house properly before she gets back... ironing, mopping, vacuuming, washing.... woah!!!
who wants to help me... haha...

okok going to shower now n sleep til tml.... i shall return... whahahaha...
i must be abit siao today... i miss watching all the movies almost... so many movies came out n havent got time to watch... who wants to date me ah!!! oh gosh i must be overly desperate... haha... havent done it for ages loh...

okok enough info!!!

sign out.

The one with my Leadership, innovation & change paper...

Die lah... die lah... die lah...
mati lah... mati lah... mati lah...

I dunno whether can pass my paper... damn freakinn irritating hard loh... oh my gosh... sigh ya.... i hope i pass if not i hav to waste another semster stuck in that sch....

Die lah... die lah... die lah...
mati lah... mati lah... mati lah...

tml is OB, a simplier n easier paper, i hope do much better in that....

can't wait til its over...sigh ya....
going back to study now....

Die lah... die lah... die lah...
mati lah... mati lah... mati lah...

sign out.

The one with my home cooked dinner...

its mooncake festival today and i m not out but cooked up at home whole day studying...
then i realise i hav no money on me to go down to buy dinner, n i m lazy to go out to withdraw money so i ended up cooking dinner for myself since i found fish n chicken in the freezer, heinz beans n chinese saugages...

Since i m not so good in cooking, i decided to chop the fish n chicken separately into chunks and use the base of the heinz beans as sauces and cook them separately and adding more chilli sauce to make the sauce more n thicker... puking already rite... well i m...

while cooking that, i chopped the chinese saugages into chunks n boiled it with rice.... thats the only dish thats decent n nice enough...

so after everything is done, i sat down n started munching on the fish n.... YUCK!!! i didnt knw it taste so bad, but i ate it anyway, i had no choice, the chicken taste as bad but i cant just be eating rice so i just basically swallowed everything...

Yap thats how i spend my fav festival alone... studying... eating by myself... it was fun though dun get me wrong... but i still prefer something else...
i missed my friends...
cant wait till its over...
okok going back to study lah...

LEADERSHIP, INNOVATION and CHANGE!!!
Shitty subject this is!!!
Damn difficult to understand!!!

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The one with my mooncake...

Its the mooncake festival tonite...
i was suppose to be one of my fav bcos i love mooncakes...
its my only indulgence... to fattening stuff...

but i got to study for my exam tml... 14 chapters in total n its been tough bcos of other factors involved...
i have spent half the time reading blogs n journals n its all wrong... in the end, i m stll so far behind... n in the end, after reading, i felt even more worst then ever...

Went to Mox to support Barry's fashion last nite n i was really amazed of how much he had came thru... all these yrs of hard work... i m so impress n proud of him actually... GOOD JOB!!!

While there, a little flew to me n told me abt some info abt someone who recently hurt me so badly... apparently, when he was doing the same mistake as i did when we were together n he stil made me feel so gultiy, i mean i m still wrong no matter wat, but i always knew that there was someone who was with him... n it was true, they showed up to a party, dressing the same, feeding each other n his partner on his blog calling him 'my hubby' i mean, wat else can it be wrong, the fact that he called me a few days ago still telling how disappted he is with me n why did i do that to him n stuff... i was so so heart broken to knw abt this... the other thing is the other person who told me how special i was to him n blah blah blah, is now attached less than a month... in the end, i felt like a fool who was being played...

i m so disappted with such info n although i dunno how much of it is true, but i hav heard enough... i dun need this anymore...

some day my prince will come,
don't know when,
don't know how,
have faith in yourself,
have trust in him,
that one day he will come.

sign out.

The one with mummy's trip...

Yap, mum's packing for her business trip to HK/ China for 2 long weeks...

Sigh... i will be all alone in the empty house... some may b overjoyed for such freedom but as for me, i prefer some cpy at times... dun get me wrong, i like being alone... i m actually alittle excited... its like living alone for the first time, cooking n cleaning everything by myself, i finally can clean the whole damn place n there will absolutely no one to touch or misplace anything... haha

i m a clean freak n a perfectionist... ask my friends...

but i do hope i got the time bcos my exams is a week away n i m no way near finishing at all... i dunno why i hav no confidence in this one... just another term n i will graduate... cant wait actually...

Having the whole place to myself is one thing but certain recent events made me alittle not wanting to be alone rite now... esp at nite... erm... not only bcos of feeling lonely but its abt more than that... i shall not stress more bcos i dun wanna be reminded wat happened one nite... sigh...

anyway, sch holi has ended n tml is the 1st day of term 4... i hope i hav time to concentrate on them n my studies... no time to think of anything else rite now... wat happened has happened... i hav to think ahead n move on i guess...

i need to grad n work my way up this cruel world... i m confident i can do it... just watch me!!! okok to all my friends... if anyone wants to stay over, feel free to ask... i dun mind cpy, just that u need to wake extra early though if u dun mind... anyway goodnite now... its late...

sign out.

The one with my 1 week break...

its the first day of a 1 week break...
dunno wat i wanted to do actually, one thing for sure is to study for my exams on 19 n 20 sep. two tough subjects... sigh... i hope i will pass them both...

Till now, my heart is still bleeding... its been like 3weeks now...i still m not well... esp when i got new info yesterday from 2 friends... it seems that he was abit insensitive by telling his friend how dramatic i was towards him n the other told me he told my friend abt us... i mean, i do not expect him to cover anything i hav done, i hav done wrong n i m ready to own up... its just that he told me he wouldnt go tell anyone but he went to tell ian even though he is not close with him... i find that simply insensitive to my feelings... if u cant keep it, dun just tell me... i shd hav knw anyway...

the only thing he would talk to me is how he wanted to talk to me abt financial planning n nothing else, if i wld to mention some other things like one nite, he would threaten to hang up on me if i wouldnt stop... i guess i m just one of his many many admirers now whom he wont target to sell his products...

i knw i shdnt be writing this but all these really hurts me alot... i really like to move on but my heart n my feelings tell me otherwise...y...

i just finish watching an emotional episode of Boston Public, it was really touching n sad... ppl who knw me knws i m an emotional fool... i cant help it... its part of who i m...

i knw i m no saint, i make mistake, i dun expect someone perfect, i wont make anymore excuses, i just wish that someday, someone wil accept the way i m n build a beautiful story together with me... someday...

sign out.