The one with BACK TO SCHOOL

Sigh...
Its sch again for me...
Everything is on again... my studies, schs, work... sigh...
another bz terms...

It didnt helped at all with the some of the recent events that happened in my life... The horoscope was saying that there will be some ppl leaving in my life... Didnt really expected that he would be the one...

We have been havin communication breakdwn but i nv like giving up on things just like that n i m a persistent person... but he couldnt stand up to his end of the bargain n he chose to go the easy way...

After seeing him for 7mths... it came to a disturbing end...
i didnt even get to see him one last time...

The thing is, i really loved him... i didnt realise how much he meant to me, as i was trying hard to control the pace n making sure that it wont progress too fast... as many say that we shdnt rush... so i took 7mths... but wat is fast or slow? does fast means that cannot take 1 week to be in a r/s or its 1 mth...
The fact is, we cant really judge wats fast n wats slow... to me at least... i cant go up to my friends n tell them to slow things dwn anymore as there is no guarantee that the r/s will work out if u take a yr or a mth of dating...

I shouldnt have suppress my feelings for Levan, now he has called it quit n i m left being regrettful...

I tell myself that this is just another life experience, although it hurts terribly to not have him ard anymore, life still goes on... i still need to work n live... i still have friends n family...

Why do we fall?
So that we will learn how to get up.

i will get up, and i will find someone...
Levan will always have a special place in my heart but i will not be sad anymore, i must learn to get up again...

Just wanna say thank you to all my special friends who had helped me thru these time...

sign out.

The one with ZEN......

Ya baby!!! Got meself a Zen Neeon...
Damn cool loh...

I cant believe it, was suppose to buy a External Hard Disc, I ended up buying something totally different but... Gosh!!! I love it so so much... by the way thanks DERA for accpying me n "thanks" Kel for being there "spiritually" :)

Finally, I got meself a MP3 player "again"!!! Why i say again is bcos my last one was stolen by some BASTARD at the gym!!! NOT a BITCH mind u!!! A BASTARD!! i hope u rot in hell with mine MP3!!!

Well my tooth is still killing me... Its already the 4th day n i m still counting.. I dunno why is it taking so long to heal... Dun expect me to shut up and not talk at all... I mean come on... Me... not talking??? Yah rite!!!

So spent the day at home... whole afternoon... Thanks to DERA!!! Her PC crash on her so since she accpy me, i cldnt say no to her when she needed to use mine...

At nite, went to watch "CURSE"... sigh... disappting leh... it like watching SCREAM 1 where the boyfriend was acting like the victim but in the end he is the mastermind... BORING!!! I guess Wes cldnt think of anything fresh yah... The actor Jess was a treat n cant belief he acted as a gay in the movie... damn cute loh... too bad he's spin off from Gilmore Girls didnt work for him... :(

Okok late liao n better rest my tooth...
Goodnite all and now to enjoy my............ ZEN Neeon...

sign out.

The one with my tooth...

i just went to extract my wisdom tooth today... gosh.. its so so so uncomfortable.

its not painful as it is still numb but, the blood is the one getting me sick...

i kept spitting blood.. lots of blood out... gosh... i hope the pain wont kill me... luckily the pain killers are working still...

sigh... cannot go out also n somemore today, kel and allan meeting for dinner n cannot go... n also the PC show is on n i really want to get something. hope i feel better tml... it would so great to go morning where no one is ard n shop watever i want with no crowd ard...

sign out.

The one with the holis...

well its the sch holidays and finally my teacher is temp at rest for a month... its been a hard long 6 months though but i really enjoy myself.

since it is the holis, i really hope to get out a while... out of spore that is, the last time was with pee to BK... had a great time but i need to recharge again... if not i dun think i have the opportunity.... So am now finding buddies to go with... hope my dream come true.. sigh...

sign out.