The one with loosing grip...

Its getting so tough and so hard. It doesn’t seem to want to stop. It just kept coming one after another. I wonder who can actually take so much of these and not break.

I am breaking but I can’t…

The past few nights, sleep hasn’t been something I could achieve even though it may seem like hours and hours of lying in bed. I feel so weak and it seems like all my strength and energy have left my body. Furthermore, today I had a long day at work. Facing students and parents hour after hour, I had to put on a mask to the world, it never seemed to end... Most of all, my boss is here today and that didn’t help either. I felt like giving up and just leave. But the thing is, I don’t want to give up at all.

‘Things will never be the same again’… the sentence echoed inside my head constantly causing intense migraines and headaches that never ends. I am fed up as well. I want a happy and simple life too. But who doesn’t? Everyone can claim that but how to go about achieving it?

I had a chance of visiting some friends in KL during last week. I had lots of fun and life in KL is actually rather relaxing. I didn’t realize that I would like it so much and I wouldn’t even mind staying there. But at the same time, when I was there, I realized something I miss a lot back home. When I left KL, I thought things would be different but I didn’t realize it would be that different.

It was a life changing week. I hope the following week, things would be better and I hope to get a pleasant surprise…

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