The one being dad
Today is wat chinese call the "DONG JI" where ppl stay home for dinner n "Tang Yuan"... I always love to eat those... i can really eat alot esp with peanuts in it...
Also i went to visit dad this morning... havent seen him in a while... as usual, mum will always nag at him saying he is not blessing us n is always bringing more problems into our family... Im like "mum, give him a break lah! he's already been confined in a jar, dun nag at him anymore lah!" As we left to proceed with our offerings, i did think abt wat she says... it hasnt been a smooth ride for all of us in the family... Mum been given extra workload, sis is still MIA all the time... n me... sigh... dun get me started on myself...
Talking abt dad, i was at my niece's bday and i was made to carry my 2 month old nephew again n i really freaked again... i dun really like kids... actually i scare i wld drop him or something... if u want me to station motionless for a long time, just drop me a baby on my arms n i will freeze.... thats wat i did, as they were talked among themselves and taking pic of me n him, i freeze but i do shake alittle making sure he wont cry... i hated when they cry.
Then as i see his innocent face in front of me, i began to melt n loosen myself... the feeling was really great... having a life on ur hands, holding it, seeing it... its really different frm wat i expected... i actually like those creatures... And then it dawn on me... i really like to have a son... but do i hav wat it thats? i hope i will be a good dad... but how n where in the world can i get one of this... sigh. it turns out, i do like children after all, but only mine of course... sigh... we shall just see wat happen in future then...
sigh out.
Also i went to visit dad this morning... havent seen him in a while... as usual, mum will always nag at him saying he is not blessing us n is always bringing more problems into our family... Im like "mum, give him a break lah! he's already been confined in a jar, dun nag at him anymore lah!" As we left to proceed with our offerings, i did think abt wat she says... it hasnt been a smooth ride for all of us in the family... Mum been given extra workload, sis is still MIA all the time... n me... sigh... dun get me started on myself...
Talking abt dad, i was at my niece's bday and i was made to carry my 2 month old nephew again n i really freaked again... i dun really like kids... actually i scare i wld drop him or something... if u want me to station motionless for a long time, just drop me a baby on my arms n i will freeze.... thats wat i did, as they were talked among themselves and taking pic of me n him, i freeze but i do shake alittle making sure he wont cry... i hated when they cry.
Then as i see his innocent face in front of me, i began to melt n loosen myself... the feeling was really great... having a life on ur hands, holding it, seeing it... its really different frm wat i expected... i actually like those creatures... And then it dawn on me... i really like to have a son... but do i hav wat it thats? i hope i will be a good dad... but how n where in the world can i get one of this... sigh. it turns out, i do like children after all, but only mine of course... sigh... we shall just see wat happen in future then...
sigh out.
posted by Jon @ 2:34 AM
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