The one with ZoukOut day

Apparently today its ZoukOut n pee is with her classmates... I have nv been there b4 but mokoo told me it is goin to be fun, they hav lots of vendors n stuff...

I was actually kind of interested to go but then again, i just couldnt bring myself to go, m still so mentally n emotionally drained n dwn...
hav been thinking alot lately... all due to guy problem... I thot it was doing well, at least it seems to me that it is doing well, i was having fun after for so long with someone special n mayb someone i could trust, at least he told me to trust him n so i did, but now... is it a rite move... there seems to be little bit of loop holes n unpleasant feeling on his part... i only knew abt it when i realise something is in amiss n decide to tell him how i feel n realised wat he has been feeling the past week...
To actually knw that in one week, so much could happen under my nose, how come i didnt knw this sooner, i would have acted otherwise... i wouldnt do wat i did, but is it all too late...
he told me he still hav feelings n wanted to try again but is it enough to save this... :( im really sadden with this event, it brought me to an all time low, i dun normally open my heart n when i did, i got struck dwn again...

I really miss the romantic gestures n simple peom smses i receive but i guess its all in the past now... i only can wish for a better tml... i m really tired of this.

sign out.